What do I do?

What do I do!!!?
What do I do now?
I'm confused and lost.
I've taken a turn into a dark ally.
I've hit the dead end of life.
The barred windows of happiness.
The locked gates of love,
Are just beyond my reach.
As I stretch through the bars,
That cut my face with their jagged edge of hate.
The thing i need most is always just out of my reach.
Always just there where I cannot get.
What do I do?
When the ones around me turn against me.
And my own Armour becomes my biggest weakness.
What can I do?
When every day is a new battle that's never won.
And at the end of the day I am scarred and defeated
When blood no longer runs through my veins.
And my enemy lingers over me.
What can I do?
But give up.
And let the angel of death.
Be my final companion
Through the gray planes of the wasteland of death.
Where nothing can harm me,
....ever again

Copyright Dale Innes Wylde Hughes ©