My heart is a river

My heart is a river
Flowing through my chest
But in your cold embrace
I find it frozen in place
There's a tear in my flesh
And through it escapes my breath
Carrying lines
That bleed tears from my eyes
Your words are bullets
That rip through my organs
And you lead me through streets
While i walk blindly in tow
But
You think with your feelings
and your instincts
Are as trustworthy
As the lies you feed me
So as you put on your favorite dress
And i gradually fill with distress
Will you stare at the stars
And for a second
Stumble upon the world
That I'm trapped in
As it races towards a sun
Waiting to burn up my existence
An event which i cannot avert
For i am hypnotized by the static
As i try to make sense of a screen
Reminding me of the past
Distracted only by the sound
Of birds
Fleeing from the winds of change
But i heed not their warning
For i cannot wait
To be wrapped in its embrace
And see as the world around me
Fade to black
And when i open my eyes again
I find myself
Resting in the clouds

Dale innes Wylde Hughes ©

Spare Me This

Spare me this
Im tired of it
All this time
Brooding in my heart
A hatred for myself
Building up until
Giving up seems more pleasant
Please just let me let go
And fall into a sleep
That will allow me peace
A silent night of rest
In this never ending pain
My heart is at bursting point
some say that giving up
is a sign of weakness
But what if its just showing
you have the strength
To let go.

Dale innes Wylde Hughes ©

Wished for another chance

I wished you goodbye
But i hoped you would stay
I scorned your name to the sun
But wished you where there as i stared at the moon
For as the stars fell around me
I wanted nothing more than to take you hand in mine
As i turned away
Filled with sadness at the sight of you
I wished you would take me into your embrace
So i left town and started anew
But i was flooded with thoughts of you
I couldn't throw away the photos in my hand
Or escape the pain that floods my house
So as it rised above my head
And i began to drown in my feelings
I begged for a way to escape
My lungs filled and through my windows
I saw you all
Dearest of friends, desperately trying to save me
Offering help, attempting to guide me through this
But my breath had left me
And i couldn't find the words needed
To help them help me
So i waved my good bye
as i drifted into the void
Accepting my fate as it was written
But secretly i wished for another chance
To do it again
To do it differently

Dale innes Wylde Hughes ©

Hurt

I do hurt
But i don't cry
You'll not see me shed a tear
Not even those closest
See me weep
But i do hurt
I know I'm not alone
This feeling fills everyone
For some its a seasonal curse
I wish it goodbye
But secretly it locks to my heart
I was sitting alone
When an angel came to sit next to me
And whispered "Do you need me"
I stared at her silently, Tears filling my eyes
A key was round her neck
There to free me from my chains of hurt
But i turn away
And mumble my goodbye
She ascends to the heavens above
As i find myself alone
I weep
I couldn't believe the chance i gave up
But i couldn't find the words
And so it was lost to me
I just stood in silence
As winter arrived
And swept a cold chill through me
Reminding me of the day i found the remedy
And how my moods change with the seasons
And it seems to me that a cure is out of reach
But ill sit on my perch
Hurting silently
Until that angel once again
Comes to rescue me

Dale innes Wylde Hughes ©

Alive

Am i still alive
is this what it is
To have a heartbeat
To have blood through my veins
A light in my eyes
It feels as if
Its all pointless
Or is it
Sparks of life appear in the dark
And fill me with joy
But the winds of change are cold
And sweep them away fast
So i close my eyes
And dream of a better path
That i could take
But everyone is at a crossroad
And it hurts to chose
Whats the point in a heart
When all you do
Is rip it out and stitch it back in

Dale innes Wylde Hughes ©

Our flawed world

We are suppressed
We are inslaved
We are servants
No longer is power in the people
No longer is there freedom of speech
No longer is there freedom of opinion
We are guided like sheep
We are herded like cows
We are lambs to the slaughter
Communism leads poverty
Liberalism leads us to anarchy
Fascism leads us to dictatorships
We are surrounded by our governments
We are inprisoned by or countrys
We are repressed by our leaders
Peace marches lead to riots
Revolution leads to civil war
Coup leads to slughter
Cultur is dead
Peace is a myth
Freedom is bansihed
The vicious cycle has trapped us
The wave of change has drowned us
For once
we can do nothing
and we have descended
into a state of Decadence
And our flawed world
Is ready to burn us
And purge its surface
Ready for a new start

Dale innes Wylde Hughes ©

Earths Eternal War

Clouds of fire
And Electric storms
Sheets of ice
And Winds of Chill
Elements rage against us
Fromm all directions
Assaulting us
Attacking us
The world turns
Its jagged blade against us
It raises it razor axe
To swipe the cutting blow
We retaliate
By eating at its forests
Carving into its mountains
Poisoning it air
Draining it Seas
Who attacked first
Who started this war
Who cares
No matter the outcome
We lose.

Dale innes Wylde Hughes ©

Extents of lonliness

A mountain climb above the clouds
A sunken city under the ocean
A broken army beneath the dust
A lonesome climber
A single recovered body
A abandoned soldier
The extents of loneliness
Run deep in our lives
Our veins bleed out or woes
And our blades are our only condolence
Life spirals out of control
Through our lonliness
We have an eternal companion
These are
The extents of lonliness

Dale innes Wylde Hughes ©

KIll me

This is to much
The years of pain
And anguish
How is it all worth it
This is to much
The hours of abuse
And the list of addictions
How is it all worth it
This is to much
All the looks of hate
And words of disgust
How is it all worth it
This build up of stress
And feeling of loss
How is it all worth it
A race to death
A fall from grace
How is it all worth it
This is to much
Just Kill Me

Dale innes Wylde Hughes ©

Today Im Aggravated

Today i am aggravated
I am enraged by all around me
The ones i love Get under my skin
My friends cause me to clench my fists
This is through no fault of there own
Today i woke to a sunshine unnerved me
A bell rang that shattered my ears
I ate the food that cause me stress
My music cut through to my bones
And the cold wind ripped at my flesh
I wanted nothing more than to crawl under my bed
I wanted sleep
I wanted peace

Dale innes Wylde Hughes ©

Dead Man

Dead man
Were you ever alive
Living life with its restriction
Following your fellow country men
Like lambs to the slaughter
Under the banner of false pretences
Marching to the beat of others drums
Not following a path of your own
Dead man
When put in your grave
Was that the highlight of your life
Was your funeral the thing
That people will remember you for
Was that final rose on your coffin
Your only medal
And that 21 gun salute
Your final battle cry
Will your widow weep on your grave
Will your brothers hunt down your killer
Will your children remeber you
As Dad Or Father

Dale innes Wylde Hughes ©

My Heart

My heart
My heart brakes
My heat brakes like the ice
My heart brakes like the ice that your trapped under
Scratching at the surface
Trying to save you
Proving to be an arduous mission
I scream and claw
as your face turns to a solem expression
Of utter lose
And your lips once red
Have gone blue
your smile once full of life
Dead and drowning in the piercing cold
Icicles grip your heart
and pierce your lungs
Not a last word do you utter
but instead just slip
beneath my reach
And out my heart

Dale innes Wylde Hughes ©

Did You Stop To Think Of Me

As you crept down the hall
Shouting your words of hate
Did you even stop to think of me
Its just something that id like to know
If you looked back or did you just walk away
As my happiness is torn from me
Do you even stop in the doorway
To think of me
How this affects me
Damn if being high is what it takes
to make you alive
Then i want nothing more
Than to fall asleep in a state
Of mind that i will never awake from
Cause as my ladder to heaven burns beneath me
Do you even stop to think of me
As you fuel the flames to catch me on my rise
This pain tears at my heart
with rendering claws of desire
To rid me of my conscience
My state of being

Dale innes Wylde Hughes ©

Change

I look at you know
With eyes of indifference
I hear your name
And i don't know whether to cringe or smile
I see you laugh
And i don't know whether to be glad or despise you
I look at you and you've changed
For better or worse you've changed
And i don't see within you
The light that sparked your eyes before

Dale innes Wylde Hughes ©

Mary had a Little Lamb

Mary had a little lamb
Its fleece was white as snow
And any where that Mary went
The Lamb was sure to go
One day Mary sold the lamb
And to the slaughter house it did go
Filled with panic and fear
he watched his fluffy bretheren
Roast on open fires and hang from rusty hooks
Betrayed Our hero lamb felt
For the one he trusted sold him out
And walked off with not a look back
Now his neck is bound to the ground
and his hoofs are stapled in place
A knife is raised to his neck
And he bleats out his final thoughts
As his blood painted the walls
They echoed through the building
Although i do not speak lamb
I can geuss his subtle words
Went a little something like this
"Bitch!!!"

Blaming the heart

In this world
we are truly alone
For only our hearts
Are there as gods
To depict our actions
And to comfort our sorrow
So when you die
And pass through to the next world
Will you come down from heaven
Cut through the clouds
Like lightning
To guide our dark paths
Or will you just shut your doors
And listen to the rain
That beats down on us
And when life is at its worst
We all look up to the sky
And blame a god
That's not there to blame
When in reality
all we are doing
Is blaming the heart
For the pain that it allows us to feel
And wish that we could just find
The great peace that we all seek
For if there is a god
Then he must of turned a blind eye
On us who have so little left
Worth living for

Home.
That one syllable word.
Four letters long.

It means so much.
Peace, harmony
Love, friendship.

We leave it with ease,
Like a bird leaves the nest.
We don’t notice how much,

We value it.
How much,
We need it.

Home.
Four letters long.
One syllable.

It could be:
The best four letters
And the best syllable.

To have ever been invented.

Home.

Copyright Benjamin J Jones. ©

Written on 14/11/09 at 22:56

Everybody Cries

Everyones eyes
are turned to me
They look at me
with lost hope
They want me to help them
But i cant
Not this time
They cry as i walk away
But everybody cries
I run through the burning fields
A devils army behind me
My friends are consumed away
By the deamons that attack
They look to me
For salvation
but i cant help them
not this time
They cry as i walk away
But everybody cries
My heart turns to ash
As the devils reaches for me
Tormented souls falling in to his gaping jaw
They scream at me as i hang from the cliff
To reach for their out reached hands
They want me to save them
But i cant help them
Not this time
They cry as they fall to their fate
But Everybody cries
I lay scattered on the rocks bellow
My ashes filling the air
But i have no worries
For this is my eternal rest, my punishment
Everybody cries
But not me
I endured

Dale innes Wylde Hughes ©

Lies

All is a lie,
even a truth,
even the most honest of words,
from the person that I love,
are lies,
as is the earth,
the sky,
the moon,
and the universe.
Even I am a lie,
watch me go by.
Goodbye.

Cameron J.M. Bray ©

Lovers poem

Roses are red,
violets are blue,
sugar is sweet,
and so are you.
Blood is red,
the sky is blue,
I'm flying up there quick,
all because of you.
blood pools on the kitchen floor.
feeling light headed,
seeing stars,
trying to open the door,
I don't know where I'm headed,
but I'm sure it's far,
up to the sky,

where pigs fly free and angels run around, smiling.
Love is a hard thing to deal with...

Cameron J.M. Bray ©

Fate

Fate.
In short is our life
written in stone
Its an unmovable object
An iron wall in front of us
It controls and manipulates
Its the puppeteer of our future
Controling the strings that make us
Love, hate, kill, save, smile and frown
They say you cannot change your fate
"A mans Fate is written in stone" they say
But what happens when an unmoveable object such as fate
Is hit by the unstoppable force that is...
That is...
That is...

Dale innes Wylde Hughes ©

Revenge is the Sweetest Dirge

I stand over the bodies of thousandss
All the ones who got in the way
I always stood by the saying
"Never get in the way of progress"
And i believe it to be true
Progress is evolution
Evolution is progress
Its as simple as that
I decided when i was young
That those who stand in the way
Should be swiped aside
Not a note to their name
For they where a blemish on the world
"Survival of the fittest" always sounded good to me
But i saw its flaws
Being the fittest wasn't the answer
Being the most cunning was
So now i stand on this mountain top
Surrounded
By the ones who share my ideals
Millions stand outside our walls
All those who didn't see eye to eye
With us
Its a lonely pillar, being on the top
But its satisfying to look down
on the ones below
For they stood against me
Made my rise
A struggle
And with my power
I Made up for the time i lost
With
Revenge.

Dale innes Wylde Hughes ©

A Simple Covering Of Clouds(Alt Ending)

I sit in a cafe starring out the window
The rain beats down on the sad souls of the people outside
It forces to pull there hoods down low
And the wind to pull there coats tight about them
Its Funny how
The best of days turned bad
By a simple covering of clouds
I walk down the street
Soaked to my bones with rain
And my heart sadden by the freeze of cold
An ambulance races by me
And a call on my phone tells me the trains have stopped
A suicide on the tracks
Its funny how
The happiness turns to depression
By a simple covering of clouds
I Sit in traffic leaning on the window
My mood dimmed by the lyrics of my music
And my mind confused by the thought of the day
I drive past a set of Mangled cars
And a women on her knees, blood soaked clothes, screaming to the sky
Its funny how
A simple evening drive
Turns to life changing catastrophe
By a simple covering of clouds
I sit on my floor
Leaning against the cabinets
Tears streaming down my face, but not making a sound
Blood warms my hands, and soaks into the tiles
As the knife lays idly by my side
Its funny
How the happiest of days
Is turned into suicide
By a simple covering of clouds

Dale innes Wylde Hughes ©

I Regret.

The world seems at an end.
I am with out you.
All that I have known is now finished.

You made me believe that:
I could unlock my heart from it's cage.
I could start to hope once again.

At first I did not believe my luck.
At first I thought I could believe in you.
I still do.

I just regret what has happened.

Benjamin J Jones. ©

Idiot. (Child denied it's candy)

Here we are bickering.
Words fly like daggers between us.
With,
Cold stares.
Empty eyes, and
Dark thoughts.
Obliterate all else.

It's funny to think that a week ago:
We stood there laughing.
Exchanging our plans for the holidays.
With,
Heartfelt looks.
Loving eyes, and
Hopeful thoughts.

And now as I watch you walk away.
I think what an idiot I am.
Acting like a child denied it's candy.

Benjamin J Jones. ©

A Simple Covering Of Clouds

I sit in a cafe starring out the window
The rain beats down on the sad souls of the people outside
It forces them to pull there hoods down low
And the wind to pull there coats tight about them
Its Funny how
The best of days are turned bad
By a simple covering of clouds
I walk down the street
Soaked to my bones with rain
And my heart sadden by the freeze of cold
An ambulance races by me
And a call on my phone tells me the trains have stopped
A suicide on the tracks
Its funny how
The happiness turns to depression
By a simple covering of clouds
I Sit in traffic leaning on the window
My mood dimmed by the lyrics of my music
And my mind confused by the thought of the day
I drvie past a set of Mangled cars
And a women on her knees, blood soaked clothes, screaming to the sky
Its funny how
A simple evening drive
Turns to life changing catastrophe
By a simple covering of clouds
I lay in my bed
The starts shinning through my window
Water through the pipes the only source of noise
I think about all that conspired on my rainy day
And notice that
Its funny how
The Best days
Are turned to hell
By a simple covering of clouds

Dale innes Wylde Hughes ©

Losing You

Your face like an angel
Is covered in sin
And it makes my blood cold
Cause i cant see within
Your eyes that are pits
Of the blackest of blues
And it tears my heart asunder
With claws of loathing
then stitches it up
With the touch of love
from all this
My mind is left daunted and deranged
And my emotions are like a tornado across the state
Of Colarado
But from all this
i still cant stand the thought
Of losing you.

Dale innes Wylde Hughes ©

These Ghosts

These ghosts haunt my every move
Remind me of my every mistake
They find me when i hide
And Chase me when i run
These ghosts Haunt my dreams
They keep me awake at night
And sap me of my strength
They fight me while im weak
These ghosts hold me back from opportunity
They stop me from dreaming
And fill my head with nightmares
These ghosts are out for my blood
And all i want
Is for them to leave me alone
These ghosts haunt me

Dale innes Wylde Hughes ©

The Day

I saw the day when
All our pain would go away
and the dark clouds above
Would be broken
By rays of light, and the cold
Would be replaced by warmth
But...
I blinked
And the chance was gone
We were given time
But didnt grasp the opportunity
That was presented to us
And now our problems
Surround us

Dale innes Wylde Hughes ©

Expensive nights out and 10 car pile ups

Mangled corpses and twisted metal
Wet roads and a lovers drive
Spilling oil and flaming engines
Foggy minds and empty bottles
screams of pain and cries for help
locked eyes and soft lips
Crushed skulls and broken limbs
"I love you" and "never leave me:
Ambulance sirens and the jaws of life
A missed red light and joyful laughter
Body bags and shattered glass
Ties and suits, Heels and dresses
Screams of fear and looks of lost hope
Booked tables and high class restaraunts
Cries of "CLEAR" and lost loved ones
A noticed mistake and slow reactions
Pointed fingers and shaken fists
Busy roads and broken brakes
Expensive nights out and 10 car pile ups

Dale innes Wylde Hughes ©

Hide me away

I want to run and hide
Get away from it all
All the pain and stress
All the hate and scorn
All the love and hope
Get away from everything that makes me feel
everything that makes me want to hurt myself
I want to dissapear into the fog and mist
never to be seen again
if it would only releive the frustration
that festers in my brain
I would relish the bullet that would end it all
and love the grave that can
Hide me away

Dale innes Wylde Hughes ©

Sorry.

I stand here.
All alone.
With the wind howling around me.
The rain dripping of my hood.
The darkness all around me.
As I stand here thinking.
All I can say is,
Sorry.
Sorry for the drama.
Sorry for the pain.
Sorry for the confusion.
Sorry for the problems.
Sorry for the lies.
Sorry for the half-truths.
Sorry for the....everything.
I stand here in this storm.
Wishing I could change the past.
Knowing that I can not.
Wishing for you to accept my apology.
Even thought I do not deserve it.
All I can say is:
Sorry.

Copyright Benjamin J Jones. ©

Now

Now that the world is broken
and riots rule our streets
Now that the economy has crashed
and theives rule our banks
Now that the governments are corrupt
and tyrants rule our countrys
Now that the hospitals have collapsed
and disease takes our lives
Now peace has been forgotten
and war tears us apart
Now that all hope is gone
and we have given up
and thrown away our freedom
what can we do
but wait for the end

Dale innes Wylde Hughes ©

Our companion Life

Count your blessing
For life comes at you like a raging army
it takes you by the neck and dangles you off a cliff
it brakes into your house and kills your family
it drves drunk and kills your friends
its has no respect for you or your dignity
Its and enemy you cant win against
its a mountain we can never climb
a trap we can never escape
Life is our enemy
and also our twin
our brother
our alter ego
our deathly shadow
Lifes a soldier
a torturer
a theif
a jester
a judge
Our Jailer.

Dale innes Wylde Hughes ©

Confused.

He says go left.
She says go right.
He says go straight on.
She says go backwards.
He says walk with me.
She says talk with me.
He says I want you with me.
She says I need you with me.
He grins.
She laughs.
He weeps.
She cries.
The sun rises.
The sun sets.
The seasons change.
Winter becomes Spring.
Summer becomes Autumn.
Saplings becomes trees.
Friends become enemies.
Enemies become friends.
The river runs into the sea.
The time for decision is running out.
He becomes decisive.
She becomes indecisive.
He becomes sure of himself.
She becomes doubtful.
He is confused.
She is confused.

Copyright Benjamin J Jones. ©

What do I do?

What do I do!!!?
What do I do now?
I'm confused and lost.
I've taken a turn into a dark ally.
I've hit the dead end of life.
The barred windows of happiness.
The locked gates of love,
Are just beyond my reach.
As I stretch through the bars,
That cut my face with their jagged edge of hate.
The thing i need most is always just out of my reach.
Always just there where I cannot get.
What do I do?
When the ones around me turn against me.
And my own Armour becomes my biggest weakness.
What can I do?
When every day is a new battle that's never won.
And at the end of the day I am scarred and defeated
When blood no longer runs through my veins.
And my enemy lingers over me.
What can I do?
But give up.
And let the angel of death.
Be my final companion
Through the gray planes of the wasteland of death.
Where nothing can harm me,
....ever again

Copyright Dale Innes Wylde Hughes ©

Let's talk, not remember.

As we sit here talking about the past.
Remembering the time we spent together.
Remembering the laughs and the jokes.
Remembering the tears and the sorrows.
Remembering the melodies I'd play for you.
Remembering the this world we built together.
I say.
Let's talk, not remember.
Let's talk about the future.
Let's talk about the fun we'll have.
Let's talk about the tears we'll share.
Let's talk about the future we'll have.


Let's talk, not remember.


Benjamin J Jones. ©

Behind Closed Eyes

As I sit on these stairs.
Holding my head in my hands.
Feeling my heart and soul cascade down my face.
Like the leaves fall from the trees.

My mind wanders over the memories.
Picking the best.
Destroying the worse.

My reflection in your eyes.
The smell of your hair in the wind.
The feel of your lips of mine.

All this my mind remembers
The good.
The terrific.
The perfect moments of us together.

But it shuns the worse.
The heartbreaks.
The tears.
The goodbyes.

I now see all this clearly.
I relive them now, behind closes eyes.

Benjamin J Jones. ©

Snow Blind

The world takes its grip on me.
Suffocating and strangling me.
Sending me deeper into a slumber of madness.
A snowy cave where I can be alone with my thoughts.
Where the sweeping insensitivity of the world,
Can not hurt me.
I long for the day when I can come down from this mountain top.
And look at the world with bright eyes.
See it in the light of day, and smile.
When the land is not torn apart by tremors of hate.
And the sky is not filled with the lightning of conflict.
But for now I remain in my icy domain.
A safe haven where I can live in peace.
For now i will leave you all.
For now i will remain...Snow Blind.

Copyright Dale Innes Wylde Hughes ©

Saviour

Walking so long through these realms of dreams.
People's thoughts of happiness and love swirling in a storm around me.
People's thoughts of pain and anguish burning like a fire below me.
I walk between these plains not able to fit into either.
Jumping between both at the simple utter of a word.
The flicker of an eye.
I can never just be in one.
But I am in one more than the other.
Anguish dashes my heart in two.
Where the stitches of happiness have withered and thinned.
They tear with each passing beat.
Each cry of help.
But through the blood and tears.
I can see a savior.
A breath of air.
Can this be.
A way to fix my bleeding heart.

Copyright Dale Innes Wylde Hughes. ©

The Start Of the End

The start of the end.
Brings along the new beginnings.
We lose the ones we love.
And find the ones we cherish.
We go through loss and depression.
Only to find happiness and companionship.
We hold tight to our old ways.
When we should be making way for the new.
When hardship and happiness are tied into one.
And a forked road is presented to us.
Our choices become what define us.
And our decisions become us.
When the unstoppable force of our will.
Meets the unmovable object that is life.
And our seat-belt comes undone.
When our airbags don't deploy.
And our ambulance gets caught in riots.
And the hospital is in the flames of discord.
We can only count on ourselves.
And our choices.
And the fate we have chosen.
To see us through the fatal crash.
Our lives are fragile.
And we are the children.
Carrying a bag of stones.
While running along a lane of glass houses.

Dale Innes Wylde Hughes .©

The World

The world.
This is were we live.
It’s where we’re destined to die & to love.
We are given a limited amount of time.
In that time, we strive for the perfection of ourselves.
And in that intent to perfect ourselves,
We take risks and commit mistakes.
We try to learn from those mistakes.
But it is the way of the world.
That we shall for ever make mistakes.
And that we shall have to take risks.
So as we stand here together.
I ask you to take a risk with me.

Copyright Benjamin J Jones. ©

Words I Hate to Hear

You try and comfort me.
Hold me close and embrace me.
Pull me tight against you.
The wind howls out side.
And the world is falling to its knees.
Murder, war, and hate run rampant.
Where as love and peace are rare.
Tears fill my....our eyes
You whisper:
"It'll be ok"
"It'll get better"
These are the words I hate to hear.
Words that are like poison"
Lies.
Empty truths.
They mean nothing.
Because when your standing on the edge
Ready for an early end.
How can it possibly get better.

Copyright Dale Innes Wylde Hughes ©

Idiot.

The world is full of liars.
The world is full of believers.
The world is full of people that trust.
I hoped that you were all three of them in one.
But as you walk out the door again, saying:
"I'll be back late, don't wait up for me."
My stomach clenches.
My eyes become moist.
And an image of you with him flits across my mind.
You think that I don't know.
You think that you're been discrete.
But that is far from the truth.
I know that you're with him.
I know that you're more than friends.
You're enthralled by his words.
You're bored by mind.
So I shall wait up for you,
And I shall tell you that it's over.
I may say that now.
But I know that when I see you walk in.
With that smile on your face, remembering your evening with him.
I shall be unable to challenge you.
I will meekly accept your explanation about traffic.
I say to myself, next time is the last time.
I've said that before and here I still stand.
All I asked for was honesty.
All I got was deception.
As I close my eyes and drift into unconsciousness.
I think that I am an idiot.
For I am an idiot.
But a caring & loving idiot.

Copyright Benjamin J Jones. ©

Appreciate her.

She loves you.
You know that.
So you think that she'll never walk.
But you push her, and one day,
You'll break her and she'll walk.
You take her for granted.
Thinking that she'll always be there.
But always remember that the day may come.
When she'll walk because of your ego.
So treat her respectfully, and don't take her for granted.
Now take her hand and fly.

Copyright Bejamin J Jones. ©

Goodbye

Of all the things in the world I hate,
The worst is saying goodbye,
Inside your heart it's raining tears,
Your brain remembering old times,
A hug, a word, everything is gone,
Apart from the memories which keep on going strong,
Until the day we meet again,
Which no time can change,
Although the worst is to say goodbye,
The best is meeting again!

Copyright "Jimmy". ©

Time

Time can be your enemy,
Yet time can be your best friend,
Time will always run out,
But yet it never ends,
But everything time throws at you,
Whether good, or whether bad,
Appreciate what time gives you,
Or else you will have missed things,
That would have made you glad!

Copyright "Jimmy". ©

My Only Wish.

You turn and look at me.
I return your look with a smile.
You smile back at me and your eyes light up.
I approach you with a smile on my face not believing my luck.
You turn to me again and smile while you walk away.
I follow you and catch you.
You turn and fall into my arms.
I lean down to kiss you.....
Suddenly the world turns black.
I sit up in bed. It was only a dream.
Tears start to form in my eyes and roll down my cheeks.
For I can no longer have you or see you.
I can only dream of you.
Regret creeps into my mind.
Regret at things that I didn't show you or tell you.
I used to think that I could go through the world alone.
Then I met you, and you changed that, you became my world.
Now I am once again alone and the world seems impossible.
My friends carry me on their shoulders and support me.
They wish me the best. They tell me that time helps.
But my only wish until the end of time, is that:
One day you leave my dreams and come back to me.

Copyright Benjamin J Jones. ©

Today, I Miss You.

Today.
Today is the day that I shall see you again.
It has been to long and I can't wait to see your smile again.
The minutes creep by like hours.
Will the moment ever arrive?
It does.
I see you.
I smile.
You smile back.
My world is now complete.

We spend the day laughing.
We enjoy each others company.
But it can not last.
And as the day draws to a close.
The minutes pass by in seconds.
The moment arrives, and you have to leave.
I say that I'll see you soon.
But we both know that it wont be soon.
But we smile and put a brave face on it.
And as I wave your car away.
I think how cruel time can be.

Copyright Benjamin J Jones. ©

This is it

This is it.
The end.
Its not worth it anymore.
Its been three years to long.
And i just cant take anymore.
I've waited to long for this.
Taken to much, too much abuse.
To many tears and so many fears.
My guidance left me in six feet of earth.
And my love left me with a broken and bleeding heart.
I did nothing at all.
But you punished me for being me.
None of you will stop me from ending it.
And when the clouds come rolling in.
To shed their tears over me.
You'll all look up and wonder,
What drove me to it?
And I'll look down at you and shout.
YOU!!
Drove me to the end.
You drove me to the edge.
Then pushed me over.


Copyright Dale Innes Wylde Hughes ©

Shall We?

Think.
Think back to the days.
The days when we lay in fields.
They days when we just smiled and didn't cry.
The days when we could love each other.
The days when we smiled at each other.
The days when we laughed together.
Where have those days gone?
What did we do wrong?
Luck was on our side then. But not time.
Luck brought us together and gave us happiness.
Time tore us apart and gave us sadness.
We tried to fight it once.
And time defeated us.
Shall we take up this fight once again?

Copyright Benjamin J Jones. ©

First Times

I see you.
It's not the first time that I've seen you.
But it's the first time since you left me.
I smile at you.
It's not the first time that you've seen me smile.
But it's the first time since you left me.
I walk with you.
It's not the first time that we have walked together.
But it's the first time since you left me.
I want to hold your hand.
It's not the first time that I've wanted to hold your hand.
But it's the first time that you haven't let me.
You turn to me, my face is reflected in your eyes.
You look at me. I look back at you.
And I ask you.
Give me one more chance.
Give me one more first time.

Copyright Benjamin J Jones. ©

I gave you everything

I gave you everything I had
My heart
My soul
My love
You gave me nothing in return
Not a glance
Not a kiss
Not a kind word
You threw it all in my face
And rubbed me into the dirt
I was nothing more
Than a voice at the corner of your mind
Because of you
I hated myself
I hated the world
And yet, I love you none the less
I love you through the abuse
I love you through the pain
I gave you all I had to give
I'm just sorry it wasn't enough


written by dale innes wylde hughes
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Contrast

You've just told me that we are no more.
With two words you have destroyed:
My world.
My dreams.
My hopes.
My friends say that it's your fault.
That you don't value me.
I disagree.
For I valued you more that life itself.
But that was not enough for you.
Or maybe it was to much for you.
I see you and my heart breaks again and again.
The world seems pointless without you and me.
But as I hold the pieces of my heart in my hands.
I realize.
That the world is full of life, happiness and optimism.
I now have to thank you for destroying me.
For as phoenix rises from the ashes, so I am reborn.
And I now realize and appreciate the world and life that I have been given.
Thank you.
And as someone famous once said:
"I'd rather live one day as a lion, than a century as a lamb"
I am no longer scared of life and it's challenges.
What's more, I relish them!

Copyright Benjamin J Jones. ©

Live on

I'm alone
You've left me
By myself
No one to rely on
No one to believe in
Depressed and suicidal
What can I do?
What must I do
I needed you
I survived because of you
How can I move on
How can I go on
You're gone
.......I've accepted it
It's what you'd want
To go on
To live on
I've accepted it

written by dale innes wylde hughes
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Not Fair!

Through clenched fist and gritted teeth I shout "no"!
As you slip away from me and leave me on my own
I blame you and curse your name
Even though I know its not your fault
My eyes are stung with tears and my will to live leaves me
Through hugs and kisses of attempted comfort
I want nothing more than to be left alone
To be left to morn and to be left to grieve
My thoughts run wild with memories of you
Adding to the pain, but helping with the comfort
This isn't fair
I scream and cry at the world
Cursing it for taking you from me
A loss that tears my heart in two
I cant go one without you. I do not want to go on without you
Everyone saying "it'll be ok" "life will go on"
Words I don't want to hear
Let me be in pain, let me cry, let me talk about what scares me
I'm scared of what life hold for me without you here to help me
I need you
Your touch, your voice, your words, your meaning
I sit here on my bed wishing you where here
I close my eyes, I imagine you, picture you here
A smile crosses my face, I open my eyes
And your gone, so is my smile
This is not fair...THIS IS NOT FAIR!

written by dale innes wylde hughes
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Your Gone

Hand in hand we walk through this dark plane
Together we face each others pain
We've come so far to beat our fear's
And battled through so many tears
We've soldiered through so many fights
And neither one of use ever took flight
But now your gone
And I can't see
A path that seems clear to me
So I give up and this is it
Because life just doesn't seem worth it
With out you here to guide me through it

written by dale innes wylde hughes
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Now.

Together we were.
Apart we now stand.
Even tho together we now stand.
We used to walk hand in hand and smile.
We now walk apart no longer smiling.
Together we used to be in each other arms.
Apart we now are from each other, separated.

As we walk I wish I could hold your hand one more time.
But it is not to be for the last time was long ago.
And this time we are destined to be separate and apart.
You made your decision. I accepted it.
So let fate run it's course.

Copyright Benjamin J Jones. ©

Memories

We're right here together
In each others embraace
watching the silver skyline, change into an explosion of colour
our pain forgotten at last
your eyes meet mine
and for a second i can feel like i wont be missed
memories, thats all these are
the few that keep me going, are filled with moment of you and me
i sit on my bed, my arms around my knees
Tears on my cheeks
Blood on my hands
I lay here starring into the night sky, stars filling my eyes
I feel your hand on mine, i pull you close to me, and our lips meet
Like shattering glass the memory crumbles, and i am alone again
this hill where so many good memorys where created
The wind blows and its icy chill cuts through me
We run along the wave beaten beach
sand bellow our feet and smiles on our faces
A wave sweeps bellow our steps, and once agin your'r gone
I walk along this storm beaten shoreline, alone
waves sweeping up the shore, trying to take me with them to their icy domain
The rain soaks my clothes and chills me to my soul
your always here with me, in my thoughts and in my dreams
But i need you now more than ever
When not even all the good memories can keep me going
I need you

written by dale innes wylde hughes
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Lifes Lights

Life was bright
Life was fun; problems fell away like leaves in autumn
All was good, all was peaceful
Then Life went dark
Things were hard
Problems clung to my mind, regrets burrowed in
Life became the prison I had tried to avoid
I waged wars on myself and didn’t let anyone help
But I soldiered on
Never Surrendered
Never Backed Down
Life was not going to defeat me
No one was
The wars I waged I won
The regrets I had, I caged
The life I had lost I regained
The walls of my prison broke and fell
They lay before me, rubble beneath me
My life is bright
My life is fun
My Problems and regrets are none!

written by dale innes wylde hughes
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Heaven & Fire.

I feel the water been sucked from beneath me.
I turn.
I see the wave start to form.
I paddle.
I feel the wave start to pull me in.
I brace.
I hear the roar of the wave.
I ride.
I feel the wave underneath me.
I smile.
I am in my heaven.
I am in the surf.


The music flows around us.
Together we sway.
Our lips meet and time stops.
I hold you close and we kiss like the first time.
We draw apart and I see the love in your eyes.
I smile to myself and stare at you in wonder.
You interweave your fingers with mine.
We smile like idiots at each other....
Suddenly the world is filled with heat and noise.
I hear the crackle of flames and feel their heat.
I look for you.
You have not moved.
I cradle you in my arms.
Don't leave me.

Copyright Benjamin J Jones. ©

Last Time To Fall

Time has run out, i cant take this anymore
Tears sting my eyes, like needles on skin
The horrible truth is coming out
My heart is drained, the last beats wasted on you
You wont cry, you wont take a second glance
Ill die, and you wont even notice
Everything is worthless, and iv been here five years to long

I walk A lonely street, My head full of thoughts about what im about to do
Passers by give me sideways glances, and my heart fills with anguish
i look up at the stars above, and wonder, what was all this for
Years and Years of pain and sorrow
All for what?

I sit with my friends, their laughter falls on deaf ears
my thoughts scream at me, noises like nails on blackboard
there was a time where, no matter how dark my life was
You would pick me up when i fell
But when you where the cause of me falling
No one was there to catch me
and my hopes smashed on the pavement bellow

The wind rushes past my ears, and stings my eyes
Glass windows fly past my vision
Clouds above me
Concret below
A gasp of horror from the gathered crowd
I close my eyes and utter my final words
Goodbye...im sorry.

written by dale innes wylde hughes
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Compilation of Poems.

The birds are singing.
The bees are buzzing.
The world is at peace.
But I am not.
For my peace lies in your arms.


I need you to breathe,
I need your eyes to lose myself
and your smile to find myself.
I need you to live, love and feel.


I have time to love you,
But I have to leave and the seconds are fading.
I don't have time to tell you that,
My love for you,
Is my way of life.


If you let me kiss you.
If you let me hold you.
If you let me have you.
Then I'll give you:
My love.
My world.
and My soul.


When I see you I can't imagine more beauty.
When I see you I can't imagine more kindness.
When I see you I get lost in your eyes.
My will is yours to do as you like.
When I see you,
I love you.

Copyright Benjamin J Jones. ©

Dont Go (I Need You)

we run and run
a starlit sky-line stretched out before us
i take your hand in mine, and we slip into the blissful darkness of the night
a city street in Seattle, dark and dank, stars blocked out by light
the wind blows like a cruel messenger
that summer is gone and winter is here
i pull my coat tight, as the throws of winter beat against me
where did summer go.
our hope and happiness, crushed against icy walls of the winter night
how did we come to this, smileys and laughter, the only reminders of summer
snowflakes one my window ledge, i sit and stare at the city before me
lights like and explosion of color replace the stars that dotted the sky
a hospital bed, the emergency ward, the smell of hope and death
your hand in mine, what happened.
tears fill my eyes, as darkness fills yours.
don't go...don't leave me...i need you
..........................

...............
i sit on my rooftop, as day turns to night.
memories of you fill my mind. and im stricken with fear
how can i continue...you've left me here.
it should have been me
i deserved to go, to slip into the endless abyss
your picture in my hand,' in times when we had smiles on our faces.
.....how can i carry on.

Copyright Dale Innes Wylde Hughes ©

Falling

Falling, through an icy curtain.

Falling, to the bottom of the ocean floor

Mistakes made, weaving the stitches of our demise

Our lives, destroyed, in the most punishable ways.

We see ourselves as indestructible, until the time when we a proven not

I look up towards the waters surface, the stars and night, all I can see

Lungs tight, air scarce, no panic, only the embrace of the end.

A deep breath, a rush of water.

My lungs turn icy, as if a frozen breeze tour through me

Thoughts of 30 years race through my head.

Friends, Family, Fights, Feuds

Words like “forever” “I love you” “Its Over”

Was it all worth it, did I live to the fullest

My ultimate question

Will I be missed?

A question I can’t answer. It tears at my mind.

I need it answered, it has to be answered, I need to know.

My mind starts to dull, my body turns numb, Icy needles pierce my lungs.

I lay down on the ocean floor, hopeless, lost, and unable to save myself

Years of helping others, now I can not even help myself

Is this what life comes to, Years of fighting, all for this

A cold embrace circles my body; the stars above become blurred and distorted

I reach for them, a final grasp, one last hope, a reach for the stars, for a second chance

But Hope is futile, This is it

This is it

The End


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I love you

A glittering blackness fills my eyes as I awake to the thoughts of better days.

As trumpets sound in the streets and songs for the fallen resonate through them.

I look out my window at the snow and the lights, as stars fill the skies.

And I realize that this is the birth and death of a day.

My eyes fill with tears, at the thought of the end of a shimmering night.

The world turns blurred, and the freezing wind tears across the land.

People pull their coat close, and some look into the air, at the fireworks of lives passed.

I take your hand in mine, and pull us onto the ice.

Lights and sounds swirl through the city…This is magic hour.

Time stands still, and this moment lasts forever.

Then shatters like a glass house.

Broken families, broken homes, broken lives.

Celebrated, mourned, and missed.

It takes six days at the bottom of the ocean, to show us what we miss the most.

But six days too late, and what we miss is gone.

Life, light, love, redemption.

These are the first breathes after coma.

We write down our thoughts, hopes and dreams.

Open our minds to one another, Beams of hope fill our thoughts.

We step out into a dangerous world, together we step out into a world of dread.

That’s when I discovered, that all our plans, where just prayers to father time.

We spent our years on borrowed time.

And wasted it.

I lay on the hospital bed, each peep on the LCD, brought tears to me.

Your eyes locked on mine, all the times we had flashing through my mind.

But through it all, fighting a battle I had lost before it began.

Against an enemy that we all feared, but could not hide from.

My mind slipping away, as my heart unraveled to you.

Our lips for one last time met, as the life left me, and the tears left you.

I watched as, you cried and held me close, our final moment alone.

The only moment we were alone.

You find the note I left you clenched in my hand.

My final words to you,

You unfold it, and read….

“I Love You”

Dale innes Wylde Hughes ©

Sea & Love.

Your skin is the colour of Caribbean sand.
Your lips are the colour of St. George rose.
Your eyes are the colour of deep mahogany.
You are the angel of my world.
Despite this you still ask yourself:
What does he see in me?


My heart has been shielded.
My eyes have been blinded.
My mind has been distracted.
Finally, you have come to rescue me.
Or am I making a mistake letting you in?


I feel the sun on my skin.
I taste the salt in the air.
I hear the waves crash and the gulls wail.
I know that I am home and with my love.
For my home and my love is the greatest of all.
The sea.


The world is at an end.
They day of judgment has arrived.
People file to church.
But I do not.
For I stand on the shore and wait.
And wait to be judged by mother nature.

Copyright Benjamin J Jones. ©

Welcome.

Well Dale and I (Ben) have decided to publish our poems/stories on here for the whole world to read.
We just hope that you enjoy them and that you recommend them to all your friends.

Please note:
All copyright for poems/stories belong to either Benjamin J Jones or Dale Innes Wylde Hughes.
These poems/stories are only allowed to be posted, shared or published by the writer. Credit is only owed to the writer and can only be taken by the writer. The use of these poem/stories by any other person apart from the original writer is illegal and perpetrators will be prosecuted.

Enjoy them!
Ben & Dale.